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| well since this is the only time i ever use this thing....
chad and i broke up last week. sucks. sucks real bad. i'm ok, but i can't help that he's the first thing i think of when i wake up. otherwise, i think i've got it really godddamn near undercontrol. and strangely enough, he just called me to see if i wanted to get dinner.... and he came over and got some ass earlier this week. what a slut.
on an entirely different note. i would like to say for the record that i'm really happy for alex. honestly. i'd like to tell him so, but i'm pretty sure i am not on his "thumbs up" list of people. i was a peice of shit back then. we made one another miserable for a while, and it's pretty exciting that someone is able to love him as much and as well as they do. you go girl.
i've been thinking alot about all of that recently, considering my most recent events. i thought chad and i were doing well... well, we are. we're friends, so thats further than i made it with most other former boyfriends. i need to be really greatful for that. its just rare that you have opposite sex pals that you've taken showers with. you know? or even same sex pals. who are YOU showering with?
no one reads this, and i think i kind of like it this way. even though it's totally my heartbreak journal. my handwritten one is my breakup journal. you know, it's readily available. haha, gosh.... i'm really not 13 years old.
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| dear cyberdiary,
holy cow.
flights are expensive. i'm currently searching for moderately priced flights to st. thomas for myself and my dear jamie. the most inexpensive i can find is a round trip package with hotel stay for $1,177. so, anyone else that i have left to buy christmas presents for...... are.. going to get homemade fudge. yes. and not the poopie kind. because i only make $250 a week.
lately... i've been playing alot of nintendo wii(PRO BOWLING BALL, OMG). i have moved away from this guitar hero. occasionally i feel like "shredding one off", but i do not. mostly because i am embarassed with how terrible i am. also, slinging plenty of lattes as usual in my pathetic existence.
no, it's not pathetic. i have beautiful cats that puke everyday and i get to clean it up. boy, they surely are some magestic creatures. precious.
chad is cool too. i like him alright....
anywho, those of you that are coming home(kevin, mark)- i have missed you and would like to see you as much as i am able to. looooooveeeee, me.
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